I wanna hold your hand.

So i think i am happy?all by myself, i am happy. And i just want to rub it into everyone that i dislikes faces ha. But when i think like that, i start to think that maybe i am just faking happy. Im nervous because she comes home soon, i dont want that, im seriously scared that it will just take me back and disolve all the work i have done. I think i have grown in a short amount of time, all by losing a few people from my life.

Ive been watching Twilight on dvd for the last few days (i keep falling asleep) I am still undecided whether i'd prefer to be Edward or have an Edward in my life.

I'd like to meet new people i think. But sometimes i just can not put in the effort, you know? it take a lot. blahblahblah.

Eh im going to drop some things off to a friend in the city tonight, wish i had someone to come with me on the drive...maybe hold hands some.

O and i also feel the need to buy new perfume or scent because i feel like a new person, kinda. Any ideas?